Kibum is broken.  The death of his best friend, Jonghyun, causes a huge turn in his life and he finds himself crumbling, struggling to pick up the broken pieces of himself to put them back together where they belong.  People sweep over their eyes to give him pitying gazes while others murmur words amongst each other when his back is turned. Although, why wouldn’t they feel sorry for him? His friend had died right before his eyes after all. Each day stretches on for as long as the horizon and it is not the pain but the guilt that becomes more and more unbearable for Kibum. No one knows exactly what happened the night that Jonghyun died, no one but himself—or so he thought.  Kibum feels trapped in a trance of paranoia and insomnia, shriveling away from any sense of guidance and isolating himself farther away from those who hold a close place in his heart.  It isn’t until he stumbles across a psychiatrist that Kibum realizes that a little help is really all that he needs to patch himself together and uncover the truth about his past. ForewordA/N: after ages of constructing and planning this story, i finally got the guts to post it on aff lmao. its my first time dedicating myself to writing a fic from start to finish since i usually give up on my stories and just kick them into the corner. i wont say too much about this fic cause i dont want to give anything away, but im really excited for it and what you guys will think!! i also wanted to mention that there will be no content of smut for those of you who were probably looking forward to that kind of stuff here lol this fic is mainly tragedy/friendship-centric. and its also only PG 13 because of language and maybe some future scenes idk well see aha. ill try to update chapters weekly if i can, and school starts in september so updates may slow down after that, so i apologize in advance for that!! >< but i can assure that i will not abandon this story!! anyway, feel to comment/subscribe and i hope that you enjoy!! ^^ and a huge thank you goes to the lovely FantasticMonster for creating my phenomenal poster and background! <3