Because sometimes everything is hard and nothing is easy and Hanbin isnt really sure what hes doing anymore.  ForewordHi! This is my first time writing a story like this, but I just got inspired by all the beautiful work I see on here and finally got the guts to post something... This will be multiple chapters I already have a lot of it written so updates should be pretty frequent. Please feel free to point out any errors or mistakes! I hope everybody enjoys reading this and that it doesnt get to monotonously depressing... Thanks!Also for some context this is taking place during the duration of Hanbins stint on show me the money 3 and references a lot of events that occured on the show.