Humans, I find them to be quite peculiar. Theyre trapped in a box called reasoning rather than a box called emotions. Maybe that’s what leads to all the unnecesary drama. We love using our heads, always thinking about the pros and cons of the situation. How will this help me? Will this do me any good or cause me more harm? That’s where the teachings of loving using your heart comes in. Honestly speaking, I guard my heart.  I always shield it away from people. They always hurt me. The key to my heart, well, I don’t have it. And it’s because of that reason that no one has been able to enter.  Only one person got to me. Got to my inner and most secretive places and said that he wont do anything to hurt me. Lies. His smile burned into my mind. The feeling when I fit perfectly into his body. The thumping sounds of my heart resounds every time I see or hear his laugh. I cant stop it. Sometimes, I think the human heart is simply just a self. There’s only so much you can pile onto it before something falls off a edge and you’re left to pick up the pieces. Love.  They say when youre in love, follow your heart. I beg to differ. Because loving someone with only your heart leads to pain. And that pain and loneliness does things to you. Feeling shit, bitter, and angry all the time just...eats away at you. Thats why a smile is the best mask.  Yet he saw through it all. He saw through that mask. But decided to do nothing about it.  It was a mistake. I loved him unconditionally and got back only shattered pieces of hearts and tears. Pragma - love driven by the head, not the heart. I dont know anymore. Was I supposed to do the same? Maybe I should have loved him that way. It’s clear to me what I’m doing now. Just fumbling through the grey, trying to find my heart that I had given away. Maybe as time flies by, the memories will fade along with them. But yet, I’d be lying to myself if I said he had been erased completely from my life. “No one’s gonna love you more than I do” Because most people love with their minds. But me? I loved him with all my heart.  ForewordCharacters »• Kim Iseul | Kim Myungsoo | Oh SehunMinor - Rest of EXO K and Infinite | Taehee, Minhee, Jihyun Author’s note :This story is..well to put it simply, based on a life. i wont reveal whos it is.. So in other words, "based on a true story". There will be some twists and turns here and there but the major plot is pretty much telling about what that person has been through. Of course, Myungsoo and Sehun are not the actual people (but omg, imagine if they were), but we four felt like those 2 best fit the characters of the two guys in real life. Which is why the two main people are Myungsoo and Sehun - not a pairing youd see quite often here on AFF.Youll notice this one will get updated more frequently than the rest (OTL logic man. theres four people working on this) so you guys should be happy. Im dieing here dealing with life crap. *jumps off a cliff towards my death* Comment, subscribe, and upvote if you think this story is worthy enough.Or at least give it a try. You cant resist giving it a try right? I mean come on! That was such a dramatic description right there! /brickedLOL just kidding. now imma end this before it gets to long.Myungsoo demands for you to give it a try. i rule you peasants. jk. come on. let me joke for a bit will you? = ^ =-ColorsofAutumnMy wonderful 3 co-authors -Ancrys, Jae_guin, icecreamninja14