[M] My First Love (Explicit) (1/2)

<tt>It was the end of my first year in college. I have to say, I was ecstatic I passed Organic Chemistry with an A; so did a few friends of mine. Let's get to the point of my story. I've never been in a relationship, never knew what love was, and what it felt like. I never knew love until I met him, my lab partner. Over the course of one year, we worked together almost everyday. I started falling for him. Every day I'd walk into class, my heart would race at the sight of him, his smile. When he'd say, "Good morning you!" I could not help but smile from ear to ear and give him a tight hug...he would reciprocate and I would wish for him to not let go of me. But, you know...we were in class and didn't want to look like two idiots standing there, hugging each other, the entire day. Hahahaha! We would have study meetings at his place and my place, back and forth; it was at his place most of the time.</tt><tt>He never really revealed much about his personal relations when we'd drift off topic and talk about each other to each other. He was such a different person outside of school; less charismatic and more gentle, sweet, sensitive, careful, loving, tender. As each day passed, a space for him in my heart grew bigger and bigger. I ate, breathed, and slept Lee MinHo. At times, it was so hard to control my feelings that I'd do things that only boyfriends and girlfriends do. I often wondered what he thought about me. Does he like me? Is he just going with the flow? Is he toying with me? I'd get confused when he'd hold my hand, caress my hair, tell me "I love you", kiss my forehead; but I dare not reveal how I felt because I was afraid. I was only a beginner, a naive "little" girl, inexperienced, vulnerable to hurting myself because of rejection. By the end of our first year of college, we were inseparable.</tt><tt>The night after passing our chemistry exam, a few friends and I  decided to release some stress and party it up like there was no tomorrow. We sang karaoke, played a few games of pool, and drank at one of the popular bars in town, Poseidon. My friends walked into Poseidon. I had to stay outside because mom called me.

Mom: Honey, congratulations on your exam! You're sister read your post on Facebook and told me all about it.</tt><tt>Me: Really? Hahaha! Thanks mom. I miss you. How is dad and everyone else doing?</tt><tt>Mom: They've been great actually! They're all really excited for you to come bak home next week for the summer.</tt><tt>Me: Hmmm...it feels great knowing you guys look forward to my homecoming.</tt><tt>Mom: It does, doesn't it? Anyway, I know you're busy celebrating. Enjoy yourself, but not too much. I miss you. I love you. Can't wait to see you.</tt><tt>Me: Don't worry, I won't. I miss and love you more. Tell everyone else that, too. I'll talk to you soon. Bye Mom.

I didn't know what to expect walking into a bar for the first time. Sure, I was 21, but I hve never partied like I did tonight. Nothing was going to get out of hand right? I was wrong! I walked in and sat on the bar with my friends. James had already ordered shots and was just waiting for me so we could begin.

James: Are you guys ready?

Me: What is this?

James: Don't worry, you'll like it.

As I drank the shot, I felt a burning in my throat...like nothing I've ever experienced before. For a few seconds I could not even breathe. Phew! It was definitely intense. Seven shots, 5 cans of beer, and 2 hours later, I was in a state of...euphoria...laughing and dancing to my hearts content.

Then suddenly, I heard a familiar voice greeting James and the rest of my friends...it was Minho. My heart was racing. I was sobering up.

Minho:Mimi? Is that you?

Me: Minho? What a surprise! What are you doing here?

Minho: Well, I felt like celebrating the end of the semester. I guess you beat me to it. Hahaha! You look good tonight by the way.

Me: Why thank you!</tt><tt>I was hoping he'd give me a hug, but he didn't. He felt different tonight. He was guarded. Not the Minho I was used to.</tt><tt>Stranger: Babe, are we getting drinks or not?

I heard a voice...her voice. Minho suddenly grew tense, lips pursed. She took it upon herself to introduce herself.

Stranger: Hey, I'm Jaimie.

Me: Hi! I'm... Before I could finish, Jaimie had cut me off.

Jaimie: You're Mimi. My boyfriend talks about you all the time. It's fucking irritating. Anyway, nice meeting you. It's nice seeing the face to this girl, Mimi. You're really pretty.

Boyfriend? Who was she calling boyfriend? Minho? I couldn't believe what I just heard. I was in complete shock. For a year, I had thought he had no one. He never told me he had a girlfriend. He didn't act like he did. I felt like such a fool for falling for someone else's boyfriend. Before I could respond, Minho and Jaimie sat at an empty table, away from our group. I was hurt. I couldn't believe what just happened. Minho had Jamie all along. My emotions took the better part of me that night and I drank even more to cover up my pain. James bought out more shots and beers. I drank and drank and drank, but my heart was crushed. I needed to go to the bathroom. I felt it coming out. My eyes were beginning to swell with tears. I couldn't hold it in. As I slowly made my way to the bathroom, my heels slipped and I fell.

Me: Ow!

James: Mimi! Are you okay?

Me: Yes, I'm good. My ankle kinda hurts, but I'm fine. I just need to get to the bathroom.</tt><tt>I stood up, about to make my way to the bathroom, when I fell again. The pain was even worse the second time around.